it's been few years I didn't write anything. seems like I'm being so busy right? I guess not. I just can't read all my post. I'm so so depressed. and I don't know why, I'm still stuck to him. shit.

since I left Malaysia, we're being a good, very very good friends. even he never say he loves me, but I don't even care cause I know, he's always there for me. leaving him and stay as a friend is something I don't even want in my entire life. I do love him, so damn much.

and then, he's got girlfriend. her girlfriend don't even like me. and he refuse to be my friends. Mister, did you know I'm so in love with you since the start? I knew you since you're being a racer, until you're being a banker. what happen to you? what happen to us? I told you, living with you is just renting a home in heaven. why don't you let me stay? remember this words, Mister.

you know , being with you just like , renting a home in heaven :) you make me smile only with words like , I MISS YOU YUK . you make me frown even you didn't mean to . your smile in front of my face makes me flying . the way you talk , just like your so sincere . I don't know . I can't tell you how much I need you . I don't know what you did to me until I can't even forget about you . I know this sounds like stupid but yea , I'm damn in love with you , Mister .

say one more time you miss me, Mister. say it. say that you're willing to be my friends, forever. you know, I never wanna hurt you, LIKE WHAT SHE DID. if you just give me one more change, I will prove it to you.